Each year he sent her roses,

and the note would always say,
I love you even more this year,
than last year on this day.
My love for you will always grow,
with every passing year."

She knew this was the last time
that the roses would appear.
She thought, he ordered roses
in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know,
that he would pass away.

He always liked to do things early,
way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy,
everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems and
placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside
the portrait of his smiling face.

She would sit for hours,
In her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture,
and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was
to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude,
that had become her fate.

Then, the very hour,
as on Va lentines before,
The doorbell rang, and there
were roses sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in,
and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone,
to call the florist shop.

The owner answered, and she asked him,
if he would explain, Why would someone
do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away,
more than a year ago,"
The owner said, "I knew you'd call,
and you would want to know.
The flowers you received today,
were paid for in advance.
Your husband always planned ahead,
he left nothing to chance.
There is a standing order,
that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance,
you'll get them every year.

There also is another thing,
that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this
years ago. Then, should ever I find out that he's no
longer here, that's the card that should be
sent to you the following year."

She thanked him and hung up the phone,
her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to
get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written
her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence,
this is what he wrote...

"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone.
I hope it hasn't been too ! hard for you to overcome.
I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
Or if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say, you were
the perfect wife. You were my friend and lover, you
fulfilled my every need. I know it's only been a year, but
please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.
When you get these roses, think of all the happiness,
That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still.
Please...try to find happiness, while living out
your days. I know it is not easy, but I hope you find
some ways. The roses will come every year, and they
will only stop,
When your door's not answered, when the florist
stops to knock.
He will come five times that day, in case you
have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt
To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him.
and place the roses where we are, together once again.

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.

Is there a place in this world where i can go,
A place where i can be at ease a place to rest my soul,
Away from all the pain and stress that life brings,
Somewhere i can go to just forget about everything,
A place where sorrow and hurt do not exist,
A place where evil can never persist,
Somewhere I can reside in harmony and peace,
To get away and escape all of this grief,
But such a place only exists in my dreams,
My misery will last for eternity, or so it seems.

Miscarriage or was it MURDER???

jraisbeck2803: so long, farewell, I fear I must say adu, to you and you and you and you and you Good Bye,  Good bye,Gooooooddd Byeeeeeeeeeee, adu.

mariac4851: good bye...:'(
mariac4851: we'll surely miss you...
jraisbeck2803: I will miss all of you
mariac4851: i'll send you emails once in awhile ok?!
mariac4851: thanks for all the help...
jraisbeck2803: sound sgood
mariac4851: thanks for being patient...
jraisbeck2803: it
jraisbeck2803: no worries
mariac4851: take care al'right?!
jraisbeck2803: you also
mariac4851: hope to still hear from you...
jraisbeck2803: drop an email and I will answer it
mariac4851: by the way...you can visit my blog...www.tabulas.com/~twisted_shiva13 or the other one, but it's kind of freakin' weird...http://screwedupshit.blogdrive.com:-D
mariac4851: hee hee...the address speaks for itself...
mariac4851: thanks again...
jraisbeck2803: no worries